Up Diarrhea Drive

Those of you who know our current situation know that it's not a

happy one.

I'm (not so) quietly going mad here. I'm not the sort of person who

can just sit by idly whilst problems get worse and worse, yet

apparently that's the only thing I can do at the moment.

I can't stop myself from panicking, from freaking out about

possibilities. It seems like the only fix will take at least a couple of

months to actually happen, and I really don't know if I can last that

long.

I can't understand how some people can remain so fucking calm

throughout major problems like this. How do other people do it?

I could use the time to go out and do some photography, but my

mind can't focus on "pretty things" whilst it's screaming at me about

our current problems. I can't get over the fact that there's literally

nothing we can do. It makes me feel sick.

If anyone can suggest ways to keep my mind occupied (and it's gotta

be REALLY occupied) then please pass them forward.

Yours freaked,

Pan